The One Thing I Never Thought I’d Turn To…

Dear Reader, 

Drugs took a lot of my life away. 

Years, really.

When I woke up on the floor after overdosing on heroin, I thought everything was over. Passing out, waking up looking at the paramedics who saved me, and realizing I’d almost died was almost enough to make me swear off drugs forever…. 

Almost, but not quite. 

Instead, I kept on dabbling with heroin for another year until a move across the Atlantic Ocean and a break from every single element of my life gave me the space I needed to start again. 

When I moved to London, I swore off the drugs that almost stole my life. I told myself I’d never use again – EVER. 

But then, years later, one drug gave me my life – and, indeed, my higher self – back. 

That Drug Is Ayahuasca

Ayahuasca is a plant medicine or “entheogen” tea containing the psychedelic compound DMT (Dimethyltryptamine). It is the strongest psychedelic known to man. 

Aya is currently considered a class A drug and yes, it’s illegal in the United Kingdom.

This plant-based psychedelic brew has been used for centuries in South America, but now, ayahuasca ceremonies are gaining in popularity around the globe. 

You may have seen mentions about this drug in mainstream culture. Actress Lindsay Lohan used ayahuasca (or aya, as it’s often called) as part of a “cleanse”, Sting, Courtney Love, and Jim Carrey all talk about their experiences after taking it. There was even an episode of Law and Order about it. 

From a historical perspective, a shaman’s pouch with ayahuasca and other drugs inside it was found high in the Andes. This pouch was over 1000 years old. 

Some scholars believe it was in use even before that – perhaps even influencing biblical events like Moses’s experience with the Burning Bush.

In other words, this drug is nothing new. It’s very, very old.  

People have been using it for generations in order to find more meaning in their lives and to make sense of the world around them. 

There’s even a saying made popular by those who’ve tried it – “You don’t always get what you want with ayahuasca. You get what you need.”

And they’re 100% right.

Please understand – I am not overstating my case when I say this drug has completely changed my life. 

My First Experience With Aya Was Rocky

It was 2012 and I drank a shot glass of the stuff. After a period of feeling nothing, I felt it all. It was intense, uncomfortable, and somehow…

Incredibly cleansing.

Five months after that first experience, I felt like it was time to go deeper and try again. 

A shaman named Suzy came to my house and served me up a mug full of truth. We sat together as I waited to feel what I knew was coming…

And when it came, it was like a freight train through my brain. 

No, actually, a freight train has nothing on this stuff. 

I cried and I purged. Then I cried and purged some more. 

For ten hours. 

Suzy sat with me the whole time, sometimes playing music, sometimes dozing, sometimes just sitting and being present for me. 

This experience – going through all the life-changing drama in front of another human was humbling. 

Strike that – it was actually kind of humiliating. 

And after a long period of careful consideration, I decided to do it again.

Only this time… 

I’d Do It Live With An Audience

In 2019, I traveled to Costa Rica to participate in multiple Ayahuasca ceremonies. 

Only this time, I wasn’t alone. I wanted you to be able to see what this experience was like, so I brought a camera crew with me. 

Under the watchful eye of the camera, I uncovered a lot of trauma from my past – this created a real crisis in my life. 

With all of this upheaval, I knew I had to confront the people who had caused this trauma in order to move forward from it. 

For the first time in my life, I felt like I truly began to heal.

Even more than that, I was able to reconnect with my vision and purpose. 

If you want to see this journey rather than just read about it, watch my new documentary Reconnect, the fifth feature-length film from London Real. 

In addition to my experiences, you can also see some of my guests as they talk about their experiences in this realm. We spoke with everyone from the guru Sadhguru to psychologist Jordan Peterson to journalist Michael Pollan to get their take on these things.

If you’re even a little bit curious, you should watch it. What you will see might surprise you.

Now that I’ve told you a little bit about my experiences with this wondrous plant, you might be wondering… 

“Should I try this? Is this the right choice for me?”

My answer to that is…


This Isn’t For Everyone 

The possible side effects include increased blood pressure, nausea, and vomiting. You definitely need a clean bill of health to even consider taking this particular trip. 

Having said that, I do believe that everyone can benefit from a journey of exploration and reflection. 

If you can achieve that through prayer or meditation, then that’s the right choice for you. 

If you want to go deeper and think this could help, then by all means, explore this option. 

Either way, all humans can benefit from introspection. That’s where all the healing and growth happens, so decide which path is right for you, and then take the time to dig in. 

As the folks at Soltara say, integration is taking the lessons of the medicine (in this case, ayahuasca) that you’ve learned and gained and translating it into real change in your everyday life. 


Brian Rose

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